According to dosomething.org, approximately 91% of women are unhappy with their bodies and only 5% of women naturally possess the body type often portrayed by Americans in the media. I am not one of those women who has a magazine ready body!
Now that I have finished grad school and am trying to squeeze into my business clothes again for job interviews I have been a little discouraged. I haven’t worked full time in a business casual office for over 5 years, but still, I feel as though I need to be able to fit into the clothes that I used to wear.
For the sake of my kids, who are just starting to be at an age where looks are becoming very important, I am trying to remain body positive out loud. It is only when I step out of the shower and on to the scale, or when I am staring at my closet full of clothes that are just a little bit too snug that I allow myself to grumble under my breath little phrases that hurtful to my own body image.
Remember though, the times we are the hardest on ourselves is really the time we need to turn to God the most. When I opened up my Bible to pray about my body image I felt silly, I felt selfish, I felt kind of ashamed for praying about something so vain. Please Lord, help me to not feel so chubby…good grief! The Bible is full of sentences like:
“Charm is deceptive & beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Psalms 31:30
“Your heart became proud
on account of your beauty,
and you corrupted your wisdom
because of your splendor.
So I threw you to the earth;
I made a spectacle of you before kings.” Ezekiel 28:17
Even after knowing I shouldn’t be vain, here I am, feeling chubby while standing in front of my closet looking at hangers full of clothes that make me feel awful about the way I look. Have you ever tried to praise joyously while stuffed into a dress from 5 years ago? It isn’t all that wonderful!
After a lot of thought, time, and prayers I am ready to accept who I am and what I look like. I am not giving up my walks and healthy diet, but I am giving up thoughts that make me feel less than. So what prayer did I finally say? I stopped praying for physical changes but instead the changing of my thoughts. I am not fixed. I will never be perfect. I will continue to pray.